fathers

作曲 : Shannon Taylor

I tried to be someone else

To escape it all

It became an obsession

And I awoke in a world divorced from self

A false reimagining

Of which I am the subject

Shrouded in abstract

Conceptual intangibles

I know that I'm broken

And I play the part

Why try to get better?

I was born to tear myself apart

This lifelong dissonance

How could it mean nothing

I become a conceptInside of myself

All the failures of our fathers

Can't define us

If all that weight fell on our shoulders

Who could blame us?

I felt locked in a stigma beyond my control

And in my vulnerability

I am fed their words and I swallow them whole

Promised a way out, and I sign a contract

A widespread mandate

To suppress doubt and push it all inside

My endlessly lost heart and raging mind

Just keep it all inside

But the shame and trauma

How could it mean nothing?

It lives inside of me, rebuilds and restarts

All the failures of our fathers

Can't define us

If all that weight fell on our shoulders

Who could blame us?

Our anxieties and fears

Can't control us

If all their thoughts

Fall on deaf ears?

I erase these memories

And I try

To reconstruct myself to fit into this life

You might want to be someone else

But what good would that do?

You might want to be someone else

But what good would that do?

But what good would that do?

If all this weight falls on your shoulders?