Arose

作词 : Marshall Mathers

作曲 : Marshall Mathers

If I could rewind time like a tape, inside a boombox

One day for every pill, or percocet that I ate

Cut down on the valium, that'll hurt everything

But death is turning so definite, wait

They got me all hooked up to some machine

I love you, being, didn't want you to know I was struggling

Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine

Just heard that nurse say,

My liver and kidneys aren't functioning

Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess

It's arrivederci, same nurse,

Just heard say they're unplugging me

And it's your birthday, Jade, I'm missing your birthday

Baby girl, I'm sorry, I ****ing hate when you hurt, Hai

And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts

But, girls, you can just open 'em,

Dad ain't making it home for Christmas

Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss

I go to make a fist, but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff

I yell, but nothing comes out, I'm crying inside, I shout

My vocal cords won't permit me,

I scream, but it's not allowed

You put your arm around mama, the karma, wow

I just thought about the aisle,

I'll never get to walk us down

Never see you, graduate in your caps and gowns

It's 'bout to be 2008, how's this happening now?

I've got so much more to do, and Proof, I'm truly sorry

If I let you down, but this tore me in two

The thought of no more me and you

You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school

Doody, I'm trying, but you, you were the glue that binded

So many things, time, I'd give anything to rewind it

I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded

By pictures all on my walls

And I couldn't sleep at night 'cause

That image burned in my brain of you on the table

Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you

God, why did you take him?

I'm tryna keep his legacy alive,

But I'm dying, where's Nathan?

Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother

Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other

I'll always love ya, and I'll be in the back of your memory

And I know you'll never forget me,

Just don't get sad when remembering

And, little bro, keep making me proud

You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down

And when you're exchanging those sacred vows,

Just know that if I could be there

I would and should you ever see parenthood,

I know you'll be good at it

Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too

I actually learnt a lot from you,

You taught me what not to do

And Mom, wish I'd have had the chance

To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you

Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you

And I can feel my soul leave my body

And float across the room

Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out

Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down

Girls, please don't get upset,

I see them cheeks soaking and wet

As you squeeze hold of my neck,

So forcibly, don't wanna let

Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks

With every second, each closer to death

But suddenly, I feel my heart begin to beat slow

Then a breath, machines go

Must've guessed the cheat codes to this shit

I'm tryna rewind time like a tape, find an escape

Make a beeline, try and awake

From this dream, I need to re-find

My inner strength, to remind me

Even if a steep climb I must take

To rewrite a mistake, I'm rewinding the tape

(I don't want it)

I'll put out this last album, then I'm done with it

One hundred percent finished, fed up with it

I'm hanging it up, **** it

Excuse the cursing, baby, but just know

That I'm a good person, though they portray me as cold

And if things should worsen, but I bet you they won't

I'm pledging to throw this methadone in the toilet

Shred these old letters I wrote

All that old pathetic loathing, closing credits can roll

I'm proud to be back, I'm 'bout to, like a rematch

Outdo Relapse

With Recovery, Mathers LP2

Help propel me to victory laps

Gas toward them and fast forward the past

Consider the last four minutes as

The song I'd have sang to my daughters

If I'd have made it to the hospital

Less than two hours later, but I fought it

Came back like a boomerang on 'em

Now a new day is dawning, I'm up, Tuesday, it's morning

Now I know