Scared of Myself

作词 : Alexander Stewart/Whakaio Taahi/Rollo

作曲 : Alexander Stewart/Whakaio Taahi/Rollo

("You're not good enough", "life's not fair")

("If you died no one would care")

When I was 13, I started gaining weight

So I started counting calories sometimes

When I was 16, someone told me I was stupid

So I bit my tongue, let others speak their minds

Now I hear voices late at night, honestly I'm terrified

That I'm never gonna be the same

Some people are scared of heights, monsters coming out at night

But I'm afraid of something I can't change

I'm scared of myself, if you ask me truth, I'm not doing well

I'm afraid for my life, I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help

My thoughts go

("You're not good enough", "life's not fair")

("If you died no one would care")

Oh, I lost control

I'm scared of myself, if you ask me truth, I'm not doing well

I'm not doing well

When I was 19, someone stole my innocence

And the first thing I did is blame myself

Now in my 20s, and I still file like a kid

Tryna work through all this shit but God it's heavy

Now I hear voices late at night, honestly I'm terrified

That I'm never gonna be the same

Some people are scared of heights, monsters coming out at night

But I'm afraid of something I can't change

I'm scared of myself, if you ask me truth, I'm not doing well

I'm afraid for my life, I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help

My thoughts go ("You're not good enough", "life's not fair")

("If you died no one would care")

Oh, I lost control

I'm scared of myself, if you ask me truth, I'm not doing well

I'm not doing well

("You're not good enough", "life's not fair")

("If you died no one would care")