if you only knew

作曲 : Alexander Stewart/Roland Spreckley/Adam Yaron

I've been tryin' so hard to survive

Sometimes I think that I wanna die

I feel so ****ing guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky to live my life

So I keep all the pain to myself

Losin' faith but nobody can tell

Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me

So I pretend I'm fine

If you only knew

What my mind is tellin' me I should do

That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh

If you only knew

All the shit my brain is puttin' me through

You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight

I'm sorry but I need you

If you only knew

I wish I was somebody else

I'm constantly overwhelmed

Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends

It's a silent cry for help

I wanna get better, I want you to know

That I can't do this on my own

If you only knew

What my mind is tellin' me I should do

That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh

If you only knew

All the shit my brain is puttin' me through

You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight

I'm sorry but I need you

Take me out of this hell

Oh, somebody help

Take me out of this hell

Oh, I'm not myself

I wanna tell you

What my mind is tellin' me I should do

That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

I'm too sad to cry but I want to

Oh, if you only knew