Paralyzing

作曲 : India Anne Parkman/Scarlet Grace Byford/James Earp

I lay here on the kitchen floor, staring

At the ceiling

numb feeling

I turn my phone off to block out all the noise, but

I can't escape it

I can't take it

And every night

there's a war

in my head

And it's so paralyzing

And nobody knows what I'm like

I'm self-sabotaging

'cause I'm always too scared to try

Wanna be a lover

wanna be a fighter

But all I ever do is hide and f**king lie here

I'm a stranger in my own eyes

wishing I were someone better at my life

It's so paralyzing

oh oh

Keep faith is what everybody tells me

it's not forever

it gets better

but every night

there's still a war

in my head

and it's so paralyzing

and nobody knows what I'm like

I'm self-sabotaging

'cause I'm always too scared to try

Wanna be a lover

wanna be a fighter

But all I ever do is hide and f**king lie here

I'm a stranger in my own eyes

wishing I were someone better at my life

It's so paralyzing

oh oh

I try to pick myself back up

keep my demons out of touch

like maybe that could be enough

to keep me hanging on

so every night

there's a war

I keep fighting

and it's so paralyzing

and nobody knows what I'm like

I'm self-sabotaging

'cause I'm always too scared to try

Wanna be a lover

wanna be a fighter

But all I ever do is hide and f**king lie here

I'm a stranger in my own eyes

wishing I were someone better at my life

And it's so paralyzing

oh oh