Gross

作曲 : Penelope Scott

It was so easy with you, so salty and gross

Made me feel clean by comparison

It was the tongue in my mouth

And the fire in my house

It made me look so innocent

I'm never gonna feel good again

I've played this game all the way to the end

Look at this stupid little song for you

You're pretty good at this game, too

I wish I didn't miss you

Or that I liked you at all

I wish I had the guts to **** my own life up

I wish I had your set of balls

But I'm a chemical compound

I'm just the ring you take off

I'm just the next little girl you fake it with

Before you go make it work with the one that you love

I drink my dumb little drinks

Act like you care what I think

Or like I really wanna get to know you

Give everybody a chance, put on my makeup and dance

Say things like, "I'll do anything for you"

Don't I look good in this dress?

In this well manicured mess

I look phenomenal, but only to you, oh

It's even worse than you think

I'm watching everything

And I'll die before I'll tell you the truth

I'm never gonna feel good again

I've played this game all the way to the end

One more stupid little song for you

You're better than you thought at this, too

I wish I never met you

Or that I wanted you still

I wish I had the guts to **** my own life up

I wish you'd just come over and kill me

But I'm a chemical compound

I'm just the ring you take off

I'm just the next little girl you fake it with

Before you go make it work with the one that you love

And I don't even resent that

Do you get that I don't even object

I don't mind what you meant

But then how dare you express

Whatever brand of respect this is

When I made sure that we both know I'm a mess

I hate it most when they're kind

When they have meaningful lives

And I'm the awful one standing next to them

It was an earnest suggestion, a real connection

Every part of me poses a threat to them

And if you're mean then they'll laugh

Like they don't understand

If you got it, you would ****ing go home, well

Say that you want me still

Say I'm just mentally ill

Or I'm just a b***h, but, you'll never know

I'm never gonna feel good again

I've played this game through the end

I'll pull the plug or I'll wait it out

But I don't need you around

I wish I never met you

I wish I wasn't a waste

I wish I had the guts to **** my own life up

Or the heart to set myself straight

But I'm a chemical compound

You're just the gun in my mouth

If you'd stop romanticizing who I am at parties

You'd find your way out

I wish I weren't a liar

I wish that I could be kind

I wish that I could trust you

That things would turn out fine

But I'm a chemical compound

I'm just a flash in your hand

And if you don't wanna play just say so

And you'll never ever see me again