Understand

作词 : BoyWithUke

作曲 : BoyWithUke

Girl, I hope you understand

I wanted to hold your hand

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

And you knew I fell for you but you

Just broke my heart in two

I was sad, mad and broken on my bed

Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе

And when I started making sensе

I found that I had reached the end

Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

You wanna bet? You're just pretend!

You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

You're not shit

I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

They were my neighbors, razor blades

And different flavored pills I hit

Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

Girl, I hope you understand

I wanted to hold your hand

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

And so far I never held you with my arms

So it's hard to be the one you aren't

With instead filled with anxiety

Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

Somebody 'cause it's not me

I'm not used to all the talk, was an introvert

That had converted feelings into writing

Used to cope with all my problems

Using notes and lots of rhyming

Used to hope for better days whenever

Nights would have me crying

I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

To the times I would try be the guy the people know

As always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

On an island full of violence, in my head that I had two pilots

Oh, the sun don't shine, and skies turn grey

I feel it coursing through my veins

I said before I'm not okay

But you don't listen anyway

You know I tried, you turned away

Straight-up lied right to my face

You ****ed my life, ruined my day

But you don't know, so I'll say

Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

(You don't know, so I'll say)

Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it

(So I'll say)

Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

(You don't know, so I'll say)

Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it

(So I'll say)

Girl, I hope you understand

I wanted to hold your hand

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

And too bad I know I can't wake up

Because I lost my way and you don't give a ****

About me, this could be a dream, I can't see

The things that you see, so please, oh

Girl, I hope you understand

I wanted to hold your hand

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

And you had known and played along

You were my home, I wrote you songs

Now you're dead to me, effectively

Removed yourself outside my dreams