Lonely

K.A.A.N.

专辑：Abstract Art

LYRICS

[02:34:89]Lawd!

Yeah, uh huh, lord, yeah, alright, yeah, huh

I am fatigued

I give it my all with the music

People do not recognize

The passion I have for the craft

The effort I'm givin' with every line

That I write a ridiculous

Life has affected my content

All of the sins that would sit on my conscience

Insecurities that I am possessin'

Why is my death been a constant obsession

I am reflectin'

Thinkin' about the life that I chose

And the path of the young n**** moving on

And I been down and out

'Cause I was looking for the answer

But never really had no questions

Tell me that I'm accepted

I'm gettin' sick and tired of rejection

I said I can't deal with the nonsense

The pain been constant

I wish I wasn't this depressed

So I can deal with the stress

I feel at all times

I'm debatin' what the f*** I'mma do with the cadence

I hope it isn't weak

N****, I can take it deep to the depths of your soul

With the list of my goals

That I could never attain

And you would take it in vain

I tried to explain

And givin' you my pain

Take a listen to the record and tell me I'm insane

With the way that I was raised

I swear that I've been trained

Prepared to be alone

I pray that I can atone

I've been lookin' for the meaning of life

With the voice in my head

Tryna get it all right

I can never get a light

When I felt that I needed it

Proceeded with my genius

Conceivin' this

The meanest shit

Your will will bend the pain to end

The second that a nigga picked up the pen

I guess it all depends upon the mood that I'm in

And the mind-state in which that I write this

Puttin' my time in

I redefine what it means

Commended for my dedication

You never related

Relayin' my pain in the passages

Written on pages

This scripture for sinners

This sentence can save 'em

I give you the truth

And it's never debated

Degraded by hatred

And giving your ignorant comment deceitful

Accomplice the reason my life is abolished

Lawd!

I'm writin' a story that you couldn't fathom, yeah

I'm givin' a vision that you can't imagine , yeah

Do I wanna live is the question that I have been asking

All of the pain that I put in my lyrics

I wonder can anybody really grasp it, lawd

Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis

Why am I lonely when people are phony

I felt like I needed someone to believe in, lawd!

Tell me that you want the real shit

Then take a second to listen and you'll feel this

As I reminisce on my self-esteem

That would evaporate in my adolescence

Turned introspective

Felt so dejected

I should use a noose as my newest necklace

I'mma set the scene from my wildest dreams

And I was headed for the valley of the shadow of death

I wanna be the mother****er you define as the best

With a rhyme to attest

Releasin' all stress

I confess that I speak a life from my view

With deceive and disciple

The blood and the pew

We stained the white flag that you use for truces

All bets are off

There's no more illusions

And anyone wanna get a division is confusin'

I wanna a nigga rid and I wanted to infuse him

My flows amusin'

Niggas are so clueless

Blind to all facts

And don't know what truth is

I put it on wax

And backtrack maneuvers

Atrocities that you associated

All my ****ing pain has been irregulated

In my isolation I was hesitatin'

I am terrified that I will never make it

Life is so evasive

I could make a statement

I'mma signify what this shit really mean

And that's another part that you will never get

Unless I paint a picture

You could visualize it

That was so surprising

Nigga I'm comprisin'

Lots of iller shit for you to realize

That I am so lonely

I am so lonely