Popular Monster

Yeah

I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze

I'm not sure if I should say this, ****, I'll say it anyway

Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah

I battle with depression, but the question still remains

Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?

And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

Yeah, it's not a ****ing phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay

Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day

And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage

And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,

I'm a popular, popular monster

I break down, falling into love now with falling apart

I'm a popular, popular monster

I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze

Every wall that I knocked down is just a wall that I replace

I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace

How the **** will I escape if I never close my case?

Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste

Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take

But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage

Yeah, it's not a ****ing stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay

Mother****er, now you got my attention

I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing

And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine

Every single ****ing day

I get closer to the grave, I am terrified

I fell asleep at the wheel again

Crashed my car just to feel again

It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,

I'm a popular, popular monster

I break down, falling into love now with falling apart

I'm a popular, popular ****ing monster

Yeah, here we go again, mother****er, oh

We're sick and tired of wondering

Praying to a god that you don't believe

We're searching for the truth in the lost and found

So the question I ask is, oh, where the **** is your god now?

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,

I'm a popular, popular monster

I break down, falling into love now with falling apart

I'm a popular, popular monster

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,

I'm a popular, popular monster